Ever notice how the darkness of night unlocks many unsolicited and abysmal thoughts? It's as if the sun shields our minds from reality and once it ducks behind the horizon all protection ceases. Anyone who has laid awake at night with thousands of unwanted worries, problems, and doubts understands. The darkness beckons them forth and without the warm protection of daylight our minds fill with the lurkers.
During the day there was a plan, an optimistic feeling that things would just work out- no need to worry about anything. But then only a few hours later all hope seems lost. It's quite odd, really. Makes me wonder why?
Enough of those thoughts.
Today, Mike and I went suit shopping. We stopped at Men's Warehouse first and get swept up in all their shiny glory...until the register told us the total was going to be almost $700. I almost laughed in the poor clerks face, that was more than $300 over the estimate he had given us upon entering the store. This was for two suits so I told Mike we could only afford one. That took the total down to $450-ish (mind you, this was for only one suit, no shirts or anything). Still over our budget that we had set for two suits. Mike and I stared at each other for about 5 minutes and then I said the classic wife line, "We're going to have to think about it." And promptly left the store of temptation.
Luckily, JcPenny's was right next door so off we went! That was a treasure trove of a million different kinds of suits and I was like a kid in a candy store. I love shopping for Mike, so much fun! I must have pulled 10 suits for him to try and about an hour later we finally had our final picks- one pin-striped and one snazzy black with a slight pattern in the fabric, three shirts and a belt. All for UNDER $400. Boo-ya!
Then, I finally quit the job in which I have been slowly dying. It's very hard working somewhere that constantly tells you every mistake you've made with zero positive feedback. I happen to know I'm very good at my job, but this one made me question everything positive about myself. I knew I had to get out of there ASAP.
Then this miracle internship came along. It's at a private high school working with the theater teacher as an assistant. I basically do everything- stage manage, direct, administrative duties...you name it, I do it. It's the best! My favorite part? I get paid. So, technically, it's not really an internship- it's a temporary job. I love everything about it, I feel so blessed to have gotten it.
On the other side of the coin, I keep stressing about JUNE. Many things happen at that time: I graduate, Mike starts at Ex'pressions full-time (he's part-time now), 3 year wedding anniversary, Mike's birthday, financial aid runs out, Lease for our apartment will be up for renewal....too much! By June I need: A full-time job that pays well, to figure out if we're going to move closer to Ex'pressions or stay in Dublin, to figure out how to pay Mike's tuition, a full-time job, a full-time job, a full-time job....
Ah, grown-up life is so unfun, to be technical.
So let me know if you have any leads on a job that I won't hate. :) GOOD LUCK, right?
Good night, all. Watch out for the lurkers.
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